what to do...?

so,as i said before me and adrian are now going out.I like him enough to be with him but i haven't had an actual boyfriend for quite some time,it's just been dates here and a few bed visits there.I kind of forgot how to have a boyfriend;my sister says not to be so negative because when i see a chick flick love story i disagree with the fact that someone can be so in love like that with one person.There are so many people in this world,how is it possible that just one is right for you.I don't want to be a whore and have sex with anyone because i am disgusted by girls who have over 10 partners at the age of 16.I just don't know any other way,i feel worthless at times because i feel that's all im going to be.sure guys call me hot and beautiful,but what about the inside?...they don't even know that on thee inside im alone and confused.i like it when they touch me and tell me I'm beautiful as they hold themselves up on top of me,or when they kiss my tattoo under my left breast,but they don't see it as anything special,they just think it's "sexy".so now rant people,what do i do?....try to start over in my f***ed up life,or wait for some chum to help me change,or to be one reason of my changing?...comment this